In a very recent beginning of the new year,which I hope would bring peace and light for all of us,I sit alone in my room, soaking in all the realisations that have dawned upon me.
Realisations that have cut me open.
Realisations that I had derailed for months, hoping they would get lost in an unknown sea,but then again whatever has been lost will be found.
Realisations that I had muted, only to feel a little less vulnerable.
Scars that were bandaged but never fully let to heal.
Things which still prick.
Conversations,actions,reactions and feelings I've never fully let go of.
And I'm not very sure if that's going to happen in the IMMEDIATE future.
Some things things take time.
Some things need patience.
Some things need strength.
And then there are some things which need EVERYTHING YOU'VE GOT.
The question here arises what will finally help you?
Keeping the scars open? letting some air on them?
Letting them breathe and burn and eventually die down with time?
OR
Letting them be?
Letting them be buried in one corner of your existence?
Dead but still living.
Soothing but still hurting.
What will make the fire die down?
Living for the present totally ignoring the past?
OR
Eventually opening the scars up, letting a little bit of sunshine, a little bit of air, a little bit of the goodness around you?
Giving yourself the time you need to turn over a new leaf, not suppressing anything anymore?
Just going with the flow.
Giving yourself the peace you deserve?
I think the answer is very obvious.
Think about it.
Realisations that have cut me open.
Realisations that I had derailed for months, hoping they would get lost in an unknown sea,but then again whatever has been lost will be found.
Realisations that I had muted, only to feel a little less vulnerable.
Scars that were bandaged but never fully let to heal.
Things which still prick.
Conversations,actions,reactions and feelings I've never fully let go of.
And I'm not very sure if that's going to happen in the IMMEDIATE future.
Some things things take time.
Some things need patience.
Some things need strength.
And then there are some things which need EVERYTHING YOU'VE GOT.
The question here arises what will finally help you?
Keeping the scars open? letting some air on them?
Letting them breathe and burn and eventually die down with time?
OR
Letting them be?
Letting them be buried in one corner of your existence?
Dead but still living.
Soothing but still hurting.
What will make the fire die down?
Living for the present totally ignoring the past?
OR
Eventually opening the scars up, letting a little bit of sunshine, a little bit of air, a little bit of the goodness around you?
Giving yourself the time you need to turn over a new leaf, not suppressing anything anymore?
Just going with the flow.
Giving yourself the peace you deserve?
I think the answer is very obvious.
Think about it.
